Ideal Theme

I (only)deal
the (lonely)me
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The man infront of me,known but grown wayward
He will taunt me withdrawn and haggard

Fixes me with fearless stare
Transfixed I regress there
The past sleepless ,restless daze
The future hopeless,peaceless maze

Reflects with piercing look
All the contours my age took

Now enquires, brows quizically
How I acquired those physically

Before he gathers damnable evidence
I hope to my aid will come providence
(though I donot believe in God)

I want to ravage and do him every damage
Iam a savage, he is my mirror image.



Is following me whereever I go
Just like my alter ego

Watching ,matching every sortie I make
Working , warning in reverie and awake

I try pulling the strings of that puppet
But its not shadow theatre stuff it

Its invain boxing him or boxing with him
Hes only my shadow Iam shadow boxing.



Its invading my mind and heart like locust
Just pervading guilt and disgust

I try to perpetrate violence emulating voldemort
It perpetuates nerve string violins stimulating bold and smart

I know its right
How can i fight

It cries foul whenever I move
Its my soul whereever can I shove




Iam an elderly desparado
seeking eldorado
Tra la la I am coming shangrila
Helloa caught in devilish tentacula
Iam searching for utopia
All the same reaching siberia

NEVER ENDING PHOBIA.
NEVER MENDING MANIA